Some pictures from the last few days in Kathmandu

Oh I miss you LeiQeng and Steve!

.. as I do miss you Mikmar!

But today I sent some homework to the on-line instructor.  Repeating the whole course one more time - so moving slowly thru chapter 3 and 4 right now.  Works wonders... ?

So - life goes up and life goes down... and then up again

..and I must say the worst sadness is over. I guess the shock of being back in this strange world in the west sort of did it for me.
And - life goes on. I have such lovely family: kids, husband, dogs. So as life goes, it probably is pretty good after all.

Nobody said it would be easy...

I seriously think I must be the most egotistical person on earth.  I seriously think I have a lot to learn - like from Sangha buddy Morteza.  I really think life sucks - truly... truly.
Purpose of life  is really to find some way to pursue enlightenement. Right now I am in some sort of Samsaric Hinterlife.  Not even close to doing the right thing.  I have to talk to Rinpoche.
Maybe I should appreciate it the way it is.  'Cause it means I am burning off bad karma.

This is a really strange sensation: I certainly know that my being is experiencing some sort of serious depression - but at the same time it is not so bad.  I can live with it.
That is a new sensation.

I wish, hope and pray that in my next life I will meet Dharma faster, earlier and that I get to be a nun/monk.  Serious studies as soon as possible. This is my absolute wish and hope.

Sounds weird, huh - but it is fully logical.

Work har started...

Och jag längtar efter det här.... är jag helt pervers?

Thank goodness for Impermanence!

At least one knows that the depressive mood too will leave.

Fall is in the air - daughters are studying under much duress and son is a lump of (very cute) clay.
And I have not had my first job yet.

phew

Re-arranged all my recent photos!

My Travel Pictures-CLICK HERE

From Shamarpa

Before we begin to meditate, we should understand something about the qualities of mind, what the mind actually is. The mind is not a thing – it is not a material substance, a fixed object. It is comprised of the nature of knowing. It has this capacity. The mind is simply a succession of moments of consciousness, moments of awareness or moments of knowing. In essence, the mind is without obstructi

on, it is vast, it is unlimited. The mind is not an entity that exists as such and that lasts for a certain length of time. As the mind enters into relationship with objects, there arise a series of ever-changing instances of perception; therefore, the mind is not one continuous thing – it is impermanent. ~ Kunzig Shamar Rinpoche (Shamarpa)

Shangpa Rinpoche

The daily routines have started.
Luckily for us - we got a visit from Shangpa Rinpoche at our Center (see www.ktg.nu).
This is what he posted on Facebook, and I think it does say it all:

Shangpa Rinpoche:

རབ་ཏུ་བཅིངས་པའི་དངོས་འཛིན་འཆིང་ཐག་འདི།

The tangled ropes of truly grasping,

བདེན་མེད་སྒྱུ་མར་ཤེས་པའི་རལ་གྲི་ཡིས།

The sword of realisation of illusory non-existence,

དྲུང་ནས་བཅད་སྟེ་སྟོང་དང་རྟེན་འབྱུང་གིས།

Cutting the roots with emptiness and interdependency,

མི་གནས་མྱང་འདས་རྒྱལ་སར་རབ་བགྲོད་ཤོག

One attains the great city of enlightenment without remaining in samsara and nirvana.

We are bound by ropes of existence and grasping. Using the sword of wisdom to cut through these illusions, we gain the freedom of emptiness and interdependency and enter into a place beyond the reaches of samsara and nirvana.